Category Archives: Reflections

Survivor’s Story – The Sum of What I Have Learned

By Anonymous

Do you remember as a child when you were told exercise is good for you? You exercise to regain yourself, to feel prettier, feel healthy. Sometimes it doesn’t work that way. There are people waiting lurking in the shadows. The shadow people have no heart, no sense of right and wrong. They only think of themselves and have no remorse for the pain they inflict on others.

To survive the showdown you must fight for your life. Shadow people will do more than rape you. You must fight for your life, because it depends on it. Fight like it is the last night you will breath or be on this earth. Fight!!!

Shadow people know their prey. Be prepared for what follows. Change your locks and phone number. My shadow person had a key. I only found out after he broke in and ransacked my safe place. He would call my phone, to the point that my phone would scare me when it rang. I changed my locks, phone number and added a deadbolt.

Trust your instinct. To survive you must know your surroundings. If something doesn’t feel right trust yourself. It is ok to trust your instincts.

Change things up. Don’t always jog in the same place or same time. Don’t go to the gym or leave work like a time clock. Being unpredictable is safe. No one should be able to map out your day or night.

All of these things saved me from my shadow person. I trusted my instincts. If you think you are being followed or stalked believe in yourself? You are not crazy. You are being safe.

Fight for your life. You may be punched, broken and bruised but you will be alive for another day. I was badly punched, broken and bruised but I am alive. Alive for another day, another month, another year.

Fight like it is the last night you will breath or be on this earth. Fight for your life. Fight!!!

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Look around you and pause.
Hug that friend or loved one.
Tell them they are LOVED.

Hold their hand.
Comfort them.
Be there for them.

I cry for you.
I feel your pain.
I feel your sorrow.
I feel your grief.

Know I am here.
Know you are Loved.
Know I understand.
Know I am here for you.

Look around you and pause.
Hug that friend or loved one.
Tell them they are LOVED.

Pause for a moment of silence.

Spread the Love.
Today and every day.


Police hunt six men after brutal gang-rape attack on teen | Warwick Daily News

How could anyone do such a vile act to a child. A girl of just 14 years should not have to face this. Please help this family find these men. They should be in jail before they hurt another child.

Police hunt six men after brutal gang-rape attack on teen | Warwick Daily News.

Six men sought after teen girl’s gang rape
BY LEMA SAMANDER
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A Moment In Time

Today I was feeling a little sorry for myself.
I had a lot happen this week.
Deaths seem to come and go a lot.
Sadness and sickness in my family comes and goes a lot.
My life is still undecided up in the air.
It is hard not knowing.
It is hard waiting.
It is hard.

Tonight by chance I ended up taking a break.
Tonight I tried to do what seventeen year olds do.
I saw a movie.
It seems innocent enough.
I took my mother and we saw a movie together.
It was supposed to be fun.
It wasn’t until we walked in that I realized where we were.
How could I be so absent minded to pick this theatre?
How could this place still exist?
Why didn’t Aurora tear it down?

I paused as we walked past the police in the movie theatre.
I paused as my mother made us sit close to an exit.
I paused when my mother instructed me to run for the exit if needed.
I paused and thought about those who sat before me in this theatre.

Now I would like to ask all of you to pause.
Take a moment and think of what you are thankful for.
I am thankful I am alive tonight.
I am thankful for all that God has given me.

My life has its ups and downs.
It has its death and sorrows.
It has life.

I realize life is worth living.
I realize life is worth fighting for.
I realize how lucky I am.

My hope is that you pause and realize too.
Life is worth living.
Live is worth fighting for.
Yes life has its ups and downs but that is what makes it special.
Live your life, every moment to the fullest.

This is my prayer for you my friends.
Live your lives.
Be happy.

I Thank God for you.
I Thank God for me.
I pray you heal.
I pray I heal.
I pray for the sun to shine and break through the darkness.
I pray that tomorrow will be the best day for you.

Sleep well my friends God is with thee.


No Sleep

By Anonymous

Night after night no sleep.
Night time is the worst.
In the darkness is the unknown.
In the darkness is fear and sadness.

I do not go out at night.
I stay in safe from the darkness.
He cannot come in.
He cannot find me.
I am safe behind my locked door.

I nap during the day.
Or sleep with a loved one to protect me.
The fear of what will happen is hard to overcome.
Trusting in another to save me and protect me is hard.

I must trust others to help me.
To keep me safe.
To care for me.
To shelter me from harm.

Or I will never feel again.
Or I will never be safe.
Or I will never go out at night.
Or I will never sleep.

I want to heal.
I want to be safe.
I want to be free of my guilt and shame.
I want to come and go without fear of the night.
I want to smile again.
I want to feel like me.
I want to sleep peacefully.

In time when I look in the mirror the face that looks back will look like me.
In time that face will heal from cuts and bruises and will look like me.
In time I will heal on the outside.
In time I will heal on the inside.
In time I hope to trust again.

Tonight I will trust a loved one to protect me.
Tonight I will be safe.
Tonight I will sleep.

I pray you have someone to watch over you.
I pray for your safety.
I pray for you to sleep.


Stand Tall

Sometimes you need to pause and reavaluate. You need to look in the mirror and see who you are. I did that this past week. I realized my worth.

This was forced on me when I was excluded from something that I so wanted. It turns out all I wanted was acceptance for who I am. I was forced to look myself in the mirror and I realized that it was their loss.

I may only be seventeen but I am a fierce force. I am strong. I am smart. I am a good person. I am a leader among my peers and community.

I am proud of my heritage. I am proud of who I am. I am proud to be me.

Never forget never forget your roots, they will hold you up when someone tries to knock you down.


Heartbreaking

Today I found out about a friend who is 19 years old. She was raped on campus at CU Boulder this Fall. I always saw her as a strong women of 6 feet tall and confident. Now I see her as a child trying to figure out how to be safe to survive life on a college campus.

You feel empowered your senior year of high school your ready to take on the world. Then some pugnacious petulant of a person steals from you power over your own body. It’s hard as a friend to see my friend suffer. Its hard knowing what she is going through. The nights that she will wake up afraid to go back to sleep. The sudden smells that will make her remember and vomit. PTSD hits at the most awkward times.

Now she is armed with pepper spray. She is scared of the dark. Has aids test every 2 months. She is afraid to kiss her boyfriend. Life will never be the same. She has lost her innocence.

Now life is shades of gray. Some days more light shines through the barrier. Most days it is hell. It will be like this for months maybe years. It takes a long time to sort through the abuse and brutality of what someone thought they had the right to do to another human being.

If you are reading this post. Please send your prayers and good thoughts out into the universe. Help my friend find peace. Help others who have suffered through attack and rape. Tonight I am praying for all of you. I am sending good thoughts out into the universe. I pray you sleep an innocent sleep unburdened by pain or fear. Good night my friends stay strong you are not alone.